Dear diaRY IV

Dear diary…

If you think that revenge brings you a life, you will definitely regret it someday. I know it’s indeed difficult to accept and lose what someone’s made for you before. Someone may be so mean, and sometime stuff like that can break your life in a billion pieces, but remember it is just a real fake thing. The way to cope it is by realizing that life is not only about you, but it’s about many people around you. If you feel so down, they will stand and hold your hand and wipe your tears. However If you make a wrong choice, someone or maybe some people will hurt too.

Taking someone for their better or worse is a worth thought. Even sometime it sounds hard than you thought. I am imperfect and I always try to make myself perfect, yet I will never be perfect, that for sure. Speaking about being perfect, I’ve been working on it. There are many handicaps that stumble me down. Often the tears of mine fall. 

You needn’t to be acknowledged by people. Boasting is something I try to avoid. But finally I realize, I am such as suck as them, boasting. I think I was modest enough, but I really wasn’t. I was too confident to confess and pretend that I was quite mature in facing my problems. I was too obsessed of being humble. I was just in a real problem. I could totally say that I’ve got NPD (narcissistic personality disorder). At first I thought he’s got it, in fact it was wrong. I was the only one who was contaminated by it.